Hello, my dear readers! Last week has been pretty crazy to me. After chilling all summer and mostly taking my time to rest and improve my mental health, I just realized that school is going to start soon. It feels like just yesterday I returned from summer exchange program, just few days ago I got a tattoo… but it’s a false feeling and I have little time to get my life together. Even though this school year will be free from some subjects that I used to hate (*cough* math *cough*), I will be busier than ever because crazy inner me decided that she can keep studying, get normal grades, manage blogging and teach kids to play the guitar 22 lessons a week. I went from having no students to having 16 at once. It’s funny to remember how boring my life was at the age of fifteen when I was too scared to step out of my comfort zone but now I’m doing it a lot more, yet wondering – isn’t it too much?
However, I’m determined to make this work and even more – feel happy while living like this. After getting off meds I have slowly realized how strong I am mentally and how much I am capable of doing which amazed me. Of course, it might not be a lot in eyes of some people but for me it is something. I went from trance-like state and not caring about anything to realizing my current goals and learning to believe that I can achieve them. Nevertheless, to live the life I want to live, I will have to do something I have barely done in my life and when I did – I hated it. If you have not guessed what am I talking about – it is planning. I am that chaotic person, who loves to stay up until 4 a.m., if I suddenly get inspired to write or paint and who is often running late to somewhere I have to be. Now it is time to stop this messy lifestyle and plan out everything, which is what I am doing these past few days and I still keep doing it. So far I have created my morning routine (Who knew these are so important! Mine always consisted on hitting snooze about 10 times and skipping breakfast.), got 3 planners (2 for both schools I will be teaching in and 1 for general daily tasks) and created blogging daily task list.
Also, I have figured out 7 big mistakes why planning never worked out for me in a long term.
- Too much daily tasks.
- Tasks are too huge.
- All of the tasks are unpleasant.
- No rewards.
- No long-term goals.
- I’m waiting for inspiration or enough energy to do something.
- Following fake goals aka goals that others have set for myself.
Now, when I know what I have done wrong in the past and how to do it the right way now, I feel much more motivated and the future just seems brighter in general.
One more thing I have been doing to change my life for the best is uncluttering my closet and my apartment. Even though I’ve been doing some closet cleaning less than a year ago, I still found myself having clothes that do not represent me or in which ones I feel unattractive. However, for a while I did not realize that the closet was not the only thing, full of old, unuseful, broken and ugly things. It was the whole apartment. For example, just few days I threw out 3 or 4 trash bags, full of old school notes that I am not going to use again. Turns out that all those small things I put somewhere away from my eyes and kept “just in case” all together created a lot of trash that I have not used for months or even years. Also – throwing out the stuff you do not need is just a part one. The second thing you need to do is stop making spontaneous purchases. This goes especially about clothes and make up. Buy something only if you need it, not because you fell in love from the first sight with it.
So that’s what I am doing to make my life better. In case you are thinking about getting your life together, too, I will leave few useful links that might inspire you to do so.
- How to be a morning person
- THINGS I NO LONGER BUY | MINIMALIST LIVING
- A GUIDE TO BECOMING A #GIRLBOSS // ORGANISE YOUR LIFE
- Minimalism: 3 Ways to Declutter Your Closet
- How to Start a Bullet Journal | Plan With Me
That’s all for now and see you in next week when I will hopefully have everything planned out and I start diving into this new routine.
Stay awesome, Porcelain Doll.